Friday, April 29, 2011

My Story

Three weeks ago, I found a lump in my left armpit. It was a total fluke that I even found it. I went to my gynecologist the following day. He felt that it was nothing to worry about since it was not in my breast tissue. Put me on a 10 day antibiotic and sent me on my way.

10 days later (last Tuesday)...still had a lump. I called my gyno back. He sent me to a general surgeon. My sister and I went to see him last Friday (while my Zoe was in the hospital). He felt my lump...thought it was nothing but opted to do a needle biopsy to be sure.

Tuesday evening (4/26), the general surgeon called me with the news that my biopsy shows a type of hormonal breast cancer. Well needless to say, I blacked out. Any word past "you have hormonal breast cancer" became a complete blur. I spent my entire evening and the whole next day crying and feeling sorry for myself and my family. How in the hell was I going to tell my kids that their mommy has breast cancer and will be sick when chemo starts? How are people going to react to my bald head and my swollen steroid face?? (BTW...I don't do ugly or fat very well). How was I going to get everything done that I do now if I am sick and tired (yes guys I am worried about keeping my house clean)?

When I went to bed on Wednesday I had a loooong talk with God. I also decided that every day when I woke up, I would make goals for myself and take each day as it comes. I also promised myself and God that WHEN I get through this, I will cherish my life and the gifts I have everyday. It is amazing how 2 words (breast cancer) can change your life. People keep telling me..."Danielle, this will make you stronger." And guess what? It is. It is already making me stronger...I have a stronger will to live, to laugh, and to love everyone and everything in my life.

I will be a permanent resident of the Bethesda Breast Center for the next several days. Here is a list of things on my TO-LIVE List:

1.Mammogram and ultrasound yesterday (holy hell that's a tight squeeze...for you little boobie girlies...exactly how would that work?)

2. Bloodwork yesterday

3. Core biospy of breast lump today...not too bad (but my right side is confused why my left keeps getting all the attention)

4. MRI Monday

5. Scan of body to check for further spread of cancer and another test for my heart (breast surgeon says it is very unlikely to have spread...fingers crossed).

6. Thursday I get my port put in my chest for the upcoming chemo treatments. That is a surgical procedure that requires some feel good meds. I will be sore after.

7. A physical somewhere in there prior to the port surgery.

8. First treatment is May 10. I get these every other week for 16 weeks for a total of 8 treatments (yes I am a math teacher).

9. May 18 I have genetic testing

Yes it is ALOT but I am ready to get started!! Ready to KICK SOME CANCER ASS!! Like Todd said....this disease had no idea who it was messing with when it chose me!!

That is all for now...I will update you when I know more.

4 comments:

  1. you are so right you will kick this canser but. ps. i do any thing for you, but clean your house,haha love you

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  2. Dani, you are one of the toughest/strongest women I know. I am confident you are going to kick this cancer's ass!
    I love you and whenever you, charlie, or the kids need me I will be there for you. Do NOT hesitate to call me. I'll even clean, but you may not be satisfied with my abilities!

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  3. Danielle - needless to say I was shocked when I found out. We all know you're going to fight like crazy - and you have a great attitude, plan and support system! BTW - you could do the fat thing for a little while - it's about time someone takes that burdon from me! :) LOVE YOU! Heather

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  4. Danielle,
    This is Kimmie. You have been in my prayers since I found out but I know that with all the prayers you will get thru it. I think it was awesome how you explained it to the kids, telling them the truth but making sure it did not sound scary. I love you, Junior and the kids and I know you will kick this. Be strong and pray pray pray. You know they say cancer is just a word and with you being a teacher you know how to kick words ass ha ha love you always and forever Kimmie

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