I...well... WE did it! Shaved my head. It was getting so thin and falling out so rapidly I couldn't keep up with it anymore. Let me tell you...that was difficult! I cried the entire time. The same feelings I had the day I found out my diagnosis came rushing back. I let the kids cut it very short with scissors and then Jr used a 1 guard to shave the rest off. Chase...or should I say Edward Scissor Hands...was cutting so fast I had to remind him to slow down so he didn't take my ear off in the process. When it was all said and done...it was a very weird sensation...I didn't realize how warm hair keeps your head.
The tears really began to flow when Zoe stopped cutting...and said..."Mommy, it doesn't matter if you don't have hair...you are still beautiful!" Then she bent down and gave me a kiss. My kids and husband are so wonderful...they were so sensitive through the entire thing. We had a nice cry together and now we are fine. I reminded them of the first day I told them that I had cancer and that the scariest part would be when I am bald. I explained that it is just hair and me losing it means the treatment is working. It will grow back in no time...probably and hopefully prettier!
Overall I am feeling okay today. I took the day off to relax versus wearing myself out at work. I got worse as the day progressed. My Neulasta shot will start setting in tomorrow and I will start to feel more under the weather. I haven't decided if I am going into work tomorrow. I will wait til morning to see how I am feeling. Friday is my students' last day. Therefore, I definitely want to be there Friday for the talent show and the awards assembly. So I am trying to take it easy to seal the deal. OOH BOY...can't wait to hear what they have to say about my new look!
Until later...
Danielle, this is your Godmother telling you that i am so proud of your strength. I can only imagine how difficult it was to cut your hair off. Zoe is right, you are still very beautiful. We all get wrapped up with things in our life and hair is one of them. Oh they say it is our crowning glory and makes us beautiful but in reality it is just a thing and you are so much bigger than hair that has temporarily taken a break from your head. On a lighter note, I guess I better get those new scarves made for you to wear for the summer.
ReplyDeleteYou should start using Nioxin now it is a shampoo that promotes hair growth and stimulates and cleans your scalp. It helped my hair grow in pretty quickly. just start now and you have to get it at a salon.
ReplyDeleteYou do look beautiful babe but i knew you would... must get some picture of you and Craig together and bald. HA! Zoe is so awesome i just love her!! Maybe your hair will come back in and we will be able to compare you to Howard Stern... awww a girl can only hope!!
ReplyDeletelots of love!! and cracking up
Way to take it head-on Danielle! Thinking of you and your journey everyday my dear! Lots of love!
ReplyDeleteLOL Christy! Howard Stern ;-) we could never compare Danielle to Howard!!!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Danielle, Sending prayers your way!
Melissa Dunn